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  “You think I ain’t?”

  “Watch your language. Nobody’s going to believe you’ve got the top scores in your class if you talk like that.”

  He sank to the narrow seat of the canoe and unwrapped the rope from the post on the dock.

  Fawn knew everyone dealt with grief a different way. She stuffed everything deep down, as if she could hide it from herself for good if she could ignore it long enough. Blaze was one of those people who immersed themselves in the moment and got it all out of their systems.

  But then, Blaze had grown up with a dad who loved him. His mom had her own problems and hadn’t ever been there for Blaze, but he and his dad had had a good relationship when his dad was alive. His dad had tried hard to be both father and mother to his only child.

  Fawn had never experienced that. Instead, she’d had a father who’d run out on the family, a mother who’d married a lecher—Bertie’s word for him—then blamed her own daughter for being raped. Stuffing emotions away was the only way to survive where Fawn came from. She’d stuffed a lot since Great-Grandma June had died.

  Fawn paddled slowly as Blaze guided them across the lake toward the far shore. There, five newly built houses with Victorian gingerbread trim nestled into the side of the cliff, surrounded by gold, bronze and yellow mums and hundred-year-old oaks and cedars. Blaze, Fawn knew, loved to paddle past those houses and dream about having a house like that himself, someday.

  In Fawn’s opinion, Blaze deserved a mansion five times larger than any of those houses.

  “Did you see Austin Barlow at the funeral?” she asked.

  Blaze stopped paddling. “You know him?”

  “I met him Saturday. He came into the bed and breakfast to apologize to Bertie just before Jill and Noelle came with the news about Edith.”

  “You talked to him?”

  “He was looking for a place to stay for a couple of weeks. He said he came to apologize to Bertie for things he did. I asked him if he was going to apologize to you.”

  She could tell by the sudden, alarming shift in the canoe that Blaze had leaned forward, and she wished she’d been facing him in the boat so she could see his expression.

  “You didn’t.”

  “Sure I did.” She placed her paddle across the sides of the canoe and carefully raised a leg to turn around, glad her skirt was full. “He treated you like trash—you told me so yourself. And all the time his own son was doing the things he blamed you for.”

  “I figure he’s paying enough already, having his only kid locked away. If you aren’t careful, you’re going to dump us both in the lake.”

  “Ramsay’s not locked away. He’s in a boys’ ranch up in northern Missouri.” She swung the other leg around and managed to do it gracefully enough that Blaze’s eyes didn’t pop out of his head, and she didn’t plunge them both into the water.

  Blaze frowned at her, his thick black eyebrows nearly meeting in the middle over dark eyes. “You eavesdropping again?”

  “Not completely. I talked to Austin Barlow myself.” She picked up her paddle.

  “Not completely?”

  “I was stuck, Blaze. He started talking to Bertie before he knew I was behind the counter, and when he started telling her all the juicy stuff, I couldn’t bring myself to—”

  “Yeah, I know. You eavesdropped. That’s not—”

  “Anyway,” she said with a hard glare at him, “he said he came back to town to make up for some of the things he did and said when he was here.”

  “Could be he’s had a change of heart in the past couple of years. It happens, you know. People change.” There was a catch in his voice as he stared back across the lake toward the bed and breakfast.

  Fawn knew he was still grieving over Edith. He’d be this way for days, maybe even weeks. He was just like this when Pearl Cooper was killed in that sawmill accident last year, and he hadn’t even known her well.

  Aside from that flaw, though, she didn’t know a better man. At eighteen years of age—a few months older than she—Blaze wasn’t a kid anymore; he was as mature as most adults she knew.

  He kept so busy, she didn’t know how he even found time to breathe. She was busy, too, but as Bertie would say, a body had to take some time to just sit every once in a while, or what was the use of living?

  “Maybe he’s come back here to live,” Blaze said. “He owns a house in town, and he’s been renting it out. Maybe he’s decided to pick up where he left off before the mess with Ramsay.”

  “But why come back here?” Fawn asked. “Everybody knows about Ramsay here. Why not go where no one knows his past?”

  Blaze shrugged. “It’s home. Austin was born and raised here. Maybe he’s just decided to come back home.”

  “How do you feel about that?”

  “It’s not for me to say what he does.”

  “I didn’t ask you to say, I asked how you felt.”

  He picked up his paddle and started to steer the canoe again. “Stop ‘shrinking’ and stick to wedding plans, or Karah Lee’s going to send you back where you came from.”

  “Where are you taking us?” she asked.

  “I’ve got chores at the ranch. I’m taking you back to the dock.”

  She sighed and stuck her paddle in the water again. “I can help with chores.”

  “You told Bertie you’d help feed the family. Don’t let her down.”

  “I know I told her that, but all the ladies from the church are coming over. There won’t be room for me.”

  “She’ll want you there,” Blaze said. “She’s hurtin’ enough right now.”

  Fawn sighed. Good old Blaze, always thinking of his own responsibilities…and hers. “Okay, fine. Dump me at the dock.” She gave him a dark stare. “I guess when you’re a man in demand, you don’t have a lot of time to spend with old friends.”

  He chuckled. “You don’t, either. You’re as bad as I am, what with the wedding to plan, and you’ll probably be needed more at the bed and breakfast now that Edith’s not there to help Bertie. And you know, you do still have school work to keep up with.”

  “And after the wedding, I might be looking for a new place to stay.”

  “Why would that be?”

  “No newlywed couple wants to start their married life with a teenaged kid in the house.”

  “That what you needed to talk about?”

  “Part of it.” She just wasn’t sure she wanted to talk about anything more right now. Blaze was in too much of a rush.

  His movements slowed. “You really worried about what’s going to happen to you after the wedding?”

  “I guess so.”

  “Well, don’t. You know Karah Lee and Taylor better than that. They’re good folks. They’re not going to dump you out in the cold.”

  She gave a one-shoulder shrug. She’d been dumped out in the cold before.

  “Karah Lee’s nothing like your mother,” Blaze said, reading her mind. “And Taylor’d be mortified if he knew you were comparing him to your wicked stepfather.”

  “Eeww.”

  “Sorry. You just don’t have anything to worry about. I thought you and Karah Lee were both all set to move into that house Taylor bought up on the hill near Jill’s place.”

  She paddled in silence as they drew near to the dock once more. “Yeah, well, I’ve been doing some thinking, too, and I just don’t think it’ll work. I may have other options, though.”

  “What other options?” He maneuvered the canoe against the dock and reached out to steady her.

  She took his hand and climbed out, managing to retain some dignity as she did so. “I’m still thinking on it. Better get to your chores.”

  Chapter Nine

  Rex stood at the edge of the cemetery as the crowd slowly dispersed. Funerals had high attendance here in the rural areas, and folks lingered after the interment, as if their lingering might set the memories of their loved one more completely in their hearts.

  There was going to be a special evenin
g meal back at the bed and breakfast, hosted by the women from Edith’s church. Half the town would probably be there, maybe more. Last night, during the visitation at the funeral home, the line of people paying their respects had filled the building and spilled out onto the front lawn.

  It had been a beautiful testament to the love this town held for the former high-school principal.

  Now, watching the crowd mingle in conversation groups among the tombstones, Rex saw one lone figure separate from the rest. Jill.

  During the funeral, she had remained detached from Edith’s family, sitting with her sister and brother-in-law, Noelle and Nathan Trask. Edith’s extended family had filled the front half of the small church, and other mourners had overflowed the little sanctuary.

  Surprising himself, Rex strolled toward that lonely looking figure in the dark gray dress. Her brown hair had been pulled back into a knot at the nape of her neck, though some strands had refused to behave and fell in tendrils to her shoulders. Her eyes, devoid of makeup, were red-rimmed, her nose pinched.

  He hadn’t seen her since the afternoon of Edith’s death; the tragedy had thrown the clinic—indeed, the whole town—into turmoil, and Jill wasn’t working at the clinic this week.

  As he studied that grieving face, he remembered how beautiful Jill had always been to him. She had a mouth that was slightly wide for a classic beauty, but could spill into a smile that could dazzle the sun. Her blue eyes, often sober and serious, could suddenly soften with warmth.

  She had walked to within ten feet of him before she looked up and saw him. He could see the conflict in her expression. She was too close to turn away and avoid him without being obvious about it, but she just as clearly didn’t want to talk to him right now. He could tell her emotions were too close to the surface.

  “Jill,” he said quietly, “I’m not going to bite, and I don’t want to make things difficult for you.”

  Her eyes darted up in a quick glance at him, then away again. “I’m just embarrassed, is all. I was rude to you the other day, and I apologize.”

  “You’ve done nothing wrong, and I wasn’t offended. It was a horrible time for you.”

  “Thank you, but I’m still sorry. You must have thought I was still upset with you after all this time, which would be childish.”

  “Edith’s death struck you a nasty blow. It was a blow for everyone, but I know how much she meant to you.”

  Another glance shot his way, this time a little longer. She was feeling awkward, he could tell.

  “Did Cheyenne tell you why I came to Hideaway?” he asked.

  She nodded, glancing back toward the crowd around the grave. “After I jumped her about it. Karah Lee said you didn’t want me to know you were here until you had a chance to talk to me.”

  “That’s right.”

  “Well? I didn’t get a call from you, and you didn’t come to my house.”

  “I’d intended to speak with you over the weekend.”

  She spread her hands. “Well, now you’ve spoken to me. I don’t see why you’re trying to make such a big deal out of it. We had a broken engagement half a lifetime ago. We’re adults. We can behave like it, right?”

  “I never completely forgave myself for my behavior at that time. I was a jerk.”

  She rolled her eyes. “Okay, so we were both jerks back then. Now can we get to work on the hospital designations and stop rehashing ancient history?”

  He felt the sting of her words. He felt foolish again. “An excellent idea.”

  She stepped past him toward the far edge of the cemetery.

  He caught up and fell into step beside her. “I hear you never got married.”

  She frowned. “And I hear you got a divorce. We’re still rehashing, here.”

  Obviously, she wasn’t quite as ill at ease around him as he’d imagined her to be. “I don’t recall relaying the information to anyone here about my divorce.”

  “Since when do you have to tell anyone? We have a deputy in town who makes it his business to check people out online. Tom’s never mastered the skill of keeping a secret. I guess that’s why you decided to come to Hideaway?”

  He blinked at her, not quite sure what she meant. Jill had apparently retained that special ability to throw a conversation off center with a simple statement or question. “Excuse me?”

  “You know, Hideaway? As in, people come here to hide away, either from past tragedy or from danger.”

  “Aren’t you being a little melodramatic?”

  She slanted a glance at him. “You were the one making a big production out of coming here, and you’re calling me melodramatic?”

  “You’re absolutely right.” He would lose this argument if he continued it. “So this place really is a hideaway. I never knew that before. Tell me about it.”

  She watched him for a moment, as if trying to determine if he was patronizing her, then she relented. “For instance, Cheyenne came here initially because of the tragedy of pronouncing her sister dead after an automobile accident. Karah Lee came here to escape her father’s political manipulation—he was a state senator before his murder this spring. Willow Traynor—who will someday become Mrs. Graham Vaughn, even though she doesn’t seem to realize it yet—came to escape a killer who stalked her from Kansas City. You don’t know them yet, but you’ll probably meet them.”

  “What about you?” he asked.

  “This is my hometown.”

  “Last I heard, you were living and working in Springfield.”

  Her steps slowed as they drew near the city square—a cluster of old brick buildings that faced outward to an encircling street. He had always thought this was one of the most beautiful little towns in Missouri.

  That could be a simple reflection of the beauty of Table Rock Lake, which surrounded Hideaway peninsula, on which the town had been built. Or it could be that he’d always felt this way because of the company he’d kept.

  Far too long ago, he’d forgotten how to appreciate true beauty. He glanced at Jill. Inner beauty.

  “That was a long time ago,” Jill said. “I was needed here at home.”

  “Noelle needed you?”

  Jill shook her head. “The sawmill needed me.”

  “The sawmill? But you have scads of extended family members to run that.”

  “Had. Past tense. My father, grandparents and others ran it until…” She swallowed and glanced back toward the cemetery briefly. “There was a horrible…incident in which my father and grandparents were crushed to death by a load of logs eleven years ago.”

  He felt a chill at her words. He could see how the memory affected her even after all these years. “I’m sorry. I didn’t know.”

  “Why would you? It isn’t as if we kept up with each other’s lives. Anyway, my cousin and I had to take over.”

  “So once again you gave up your own dream in deference to your family?”

  She glanced up at him. “You make it sound as if that’s a bad thing.”

  “Giving up your dream for someone else’s?”

  “I was needed. Having loved ones who need you isn’t such a bad thing. Besides, I got a job here in town as the school nurse.”

  “And how about Noelle? Did she ever have to give up her dreams and career and join the family business?”

  He heard the censure in his own voice a fraction of a second before annoyance registered in Jill’s expression.

  Suddenly, this was not boding well for a comfortable reunion. Maybe they did need to rehash ancient history. Or maybe that history wasn’t so ancient.

  Jill felt the prickle of antagonism make a flying leap up her scalp. “You already apologized for being a jerk, Rex. Why do I get the feeling you didn’t really mean it?”

  “Sorry. I didn’t realize I was going to say that.”

  “You didn’t realize it? My little sister lost her mom before she was old enough to understand the meaning of death.”

  “You lost your mother, too.”

  “I was eigh
t years older than Noelle. She got stuck with me—a bully of an older sister and a very poor substitute for a set of parents—because, in truth, our father pretty much abandoned us emotionally from that point on.”

  “You never told me that.”

  “I was ashamed to admit it even to myself at the time.”

  “I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have—”

  “No, you shouldn’t have, but you did.” She paused beneath a willow tree, arms crossed. “I’ve got a good rant going and I want to finish it for once. I realize you always resented Noelle because her need for love interfered in our relationship—”

  “You’re right, and I was very wrong—”

  “But in truth, for her sake, I should never have gone away.”

  “I’m sorry, I can’t agree with that. You’re saying you should never have become a nurse?”

  Jill hesitated. “I left home too soon. She wasn’t ready to be abandoned by the person she needed the most. I could have put nursing school on hold for a couple of more years.”

  “And yet, you’d already put your life on hold for three years after graduating from high school, watching all your friends go away to college.”

  “I went to college.” She could hear the defensiveness in her own voice.

  “You drove to School of the Ozarks at Point Lookout for classes, then back home at night to be with Noelle.”

  “I got the preliminaries out of the way.” He was still itching for a fight, was he? She could give him one. Strangely, though, she didn’t really want one. Not with him. “Not everyone has to leave home as soon as they graduate high school.”

  “You’re trying to tell me you were the only person who could take care of Noelle? At that time you did have extended family.”

  Jill wasn’t prepared to explain to him about the concern she’d had for Noelle’s safety at that time in their lives. Would Noelle still even be alive if I hadn’t been so obsessed for her welfare? That was a time when my OCD came in handy, hard as it’s always been.